missroth

AOH3

2007-09-27T21:41:07Z

Dear Trey,
You were my first boyfriend, my first kiss, and my first love. You changed my life and opened my eyes to the world. I'm sincerely thankful for the time we had together, from being your "Honey Bunny" to one last hoorah in Trident. Despite going our separate ways for a while, we still always had the same friends around us and you were always there for me, whether I was upset or ecstatic.
I wish I had been closer to you before you left. I wish I had known that you were hurting so badly and so deeply that you felt there was no other way out than to take your own life. Your friends and family love you so much, Trey. I can't even express the amount of hurt and pain that we're going through. You've touched so many lives with your quick wit and brilliance- I wish you were still here to appreciate it.
I still have that bear you gave me so many years ago for Christmas- the one with the pillow sewn to it that said "All I want for Christmas is you." Every time I watch Pulp Fiction, I'll remember you. Oh, and I never stepped on Fight Club. The Debutante Ball will not be the same without you. Christmas won't be the same without you. None of us will be the same without you.
I'll never forget you and I will foever miss you. With your death, I feel like a little piece of all of us died, too. I hope you're looking down on us knowing how much you are loved and how much you will be missed. We're half the man you are, Allan Oakley Hunter III. May you rest in peace.
Lovingly,
Ginna

missroth @ 2006-12-04T05:44:00

2006-12-04T05:44:52Z

You’re in a glass room lying naked on the floor under florescent lighting. Everyone can see you, but no one pays attention. You’re shielded from the world and blinded by the lights above you. Your heart is bleeding out of your chest and no one does a thing. They all watch you as your heart sits in the open. And somehow he figures it all out. He’s the only one.
He walks into the room and has two options.
He can save you. He can pick you up off the floor, complete your heart, and make you whole.
Or
He can walk over you. He can step on your heart and end it all, leaving nothing but a trail of bloody footprints.
It’s a toss up. There’s nothing you can do now. You’ve let yourself be exposed. With nothing to hide behind or fall back on, you’re forced to wait.

missroth @ 2006-11-10T23:05:00

2006-11-10T23:05:02Z

People thrive on stability. It seems like everyone has a back up plan for everything. People stay in relationships- even if they're unhappy. They convince themselves that they can change their significant other or they will eventually get over whatever it is that pisses them off. The fact of being alone scares them so much that they're willing to sacrifice their happiness. If they leave their partner in search of real, honest love, there is a change that they will never find it. So, instead of risking their hearts to find what it is that they really want, they're content being moderately happy.
She asked me why I loved him. My responce, which came surprisingly natural was, "With every boy I've ever dated, I have always wanted to change them in some way to make them better, or to make them mature faster. He's the frist boy I haven't wanted to change at all. He's perfect."

missroth @ 2006-11-03T22:01:00

2006-11-03T22:01:31Z

It's Fall- finally.
Seasons change and friends change.
How do you know when something is worth the sacrifice? Relationships are supposed to be based on trust, respect, understanding, as well as the ability to give and take. You can plan out your entire life. Then, once all of the plans are nearly finalized- you're thrown through a loop. Maybe you get scared. Maybe you forget. Maybe you remember. Or maybe, just maybe- you meet the one person who can change everything you've ever wanted, and let it be okay.
Nothing is for sure. Things change. People, obviously, change. It's just a matter of keeping windows open.
You've got to ask yourself the question- where are you now?
It's only the beginning. So why can I not stop thinking about the end? I don't want it to end.

missroth @ 2006-10-24T04:12:00

2006-10-24T04:13:52Z

Her: Why are we so cute?
Him: 'Cause we're in love.

missroth @ 2006-10-17T21:36:00

2006-10-18T04:41:46Z

You know when days are shit and nothing seems right?
It's kind of like that.
Yeah.
Nothing going your way?
Nope.
Not today. Maybe tomorrow.
Hopefully it will turn around.
I hope so.
It always does.
It's just that in-between time that's killer.
Oh well. I have high hopes for Wednesday.
You're one tough cookie.
You will recover.
You always bounce back.
Merci.
I think we're slowly composing lyrics to and unwritten song.

Just one of many conversations between VLR and CJM. <3

missroth @ 2006-10-10T16:43:00

2006-10-10T23:47:31Z

You risk all that you are in loving a person.
No matter how much you love them and care about them and their well-being, there is no guarantee that they will or ever will love you the same way, or at all.
Just because someone doesn't love you the way that you love them, doesn't mean that they don't still love you though.
You lay your heart out on the line for a person and they can either complete it or just break the shit out of it and you have no idea what to expect.
All you can do is give everything you have.
Love. Love. Love.

missroth @ 2006-10-10T15:12:00

2006-10-10T22:12:02Z

My fellow blonde cancer friend and I had a good talk today. We decided that people are selfish. Some way more than others, however. We've both been victim to the same retard who thinks he's the center of the world. He thinks he can get away with anything and that it's okay to hurt other people. So our question to him is- what makes you so special? She confided in you and let you into her life, but then you sold her out and abandoned her trust. So what makes you think you have the right for her to tell you anything anymore? You take friendships and turn them into security blankets. If it's not all about you, you freak out like a five year-old until someone hears you. You love the attention. But the thing you're too naive to ralize is that negative attention is not a good thing. I let you back into my life after the hell you put me through. You took advantage of that. More than once. I wrote you off, signed you out of my life. For good. Now you have the nerve to ask to be in it again? Who are you kidding? Just because you want something doesn't mean that the rest of us have forgotten about the past. It's odd that a summer can be ruined byt he absence of one person, but the next summer can be the greatest for the exact same reason.

missroth @ 2006-10-09T20:09:00

2006-10-09T20:15:22Z

It's funny to think about how much of my life is going to be determined by one test. One single test. Where I'll go to school, for example. Then from there, what job I'll get. The friends I'll meet. The friends I'll lose. Where I'll live. And so on.
The people you meet matter. A lot of people think that since they're probably not going to see most of their high school or grade school friends again, they don't matter to them as much as the people they are going to meet. But they're wrong. The pople you're friends with now and have been friends with in the past have an impact on you. They've altered the way you look at various situations, they help you grow, and you learn from them. Whether or not you liked them, loved them, or hated them, they've been a stepping stone for you as you go through life.
Past experiences can cripple a person emotionally, but they can also help them learn. And it's hard to learn on your own, hence where your friends come into play.